Theme songs...

Jason and I are huge believers that every phase of your life deserves it's own theme song. We are constantly hearing songs and saying "this is so us right now". The first two songs on my play list are my theme songs right now.

I LOVE Casting Crowns. They are hands down my favorite christian music. No one says it like they can.

While my life is in this storm, I will praise You. It's still raining, and I can barely hear You whisper, "I am still with you". I will praise the God who gives...and takes away. I WILL lift my hands. Every tear I cry You hold in Your hands. You are who You are no matter where I am. You never left my side and although my heart is torn...I will praise You in this storm.

My strength is almost gone, how can I carry on if I can't find You. Again, I hear Your voice through the rain, and I will praise You in this storm...YOU are who You are no matter where I am.

My husband is amazing by the way. I can't believe to this day that God chose me for him to fall in love with. I was so unworthy of his love when we first met. I was so not good enough for him or his amazing family. I know that God chose me so that Jason could "save"me. Not save as in "Jesus saves", but save as in, give me a big wake up call as to how I wanted the rest of my life to look. Sure, I could have moved in with the high school boyfriend that was begging me to live with him. I could have chosen NOT to go to collage and just work at United. I could have decided that the standards of living Christ-like were WAY to hard to handle. But, Jason came along and showed me in all his 19 year old wisdom, what it was really like to have someone REALLY love you. And for me to not want that to get away. Jason has spent most of our marriage helping me grow closer to Christ by leading this family in ways I could never have imagined for my future. I sure am glad I spotted that "tall, skinny cowboy" on my first day at Quanah High. He is my soul mate.

Jason's mom said to me the other day, "I have loved you, Amy, since Jason was born. I have prayed for you from the moment I saw Jason. That he would meet someone to love and spend the rest of his life with. I am so proud of who you are and what you've become." WOW! What a blessed woman I am.

Friday, on the way to Hamilton to spend some time away to "relax", I realized that Satan has been perched on my shoulder. He is talking to me in one ear. And boy, is he giving me an ear full. I am sad and scared. He is using one of the most important parts of ME against me. My family. My mother. Kaylan and Ashlee. Krista. And he knows how much I adore little Ava. The fear of never seeing them again makes me want to give up....SEE. Satan. I hate him. He makes me want to vomit. Hence, the theme song, Voice of Truth.

Take a little time and listen to both songs. They will bless your day.

I feel like I need to apologize for the blah, blah, blah-ness of this post. I don't want this blog to be a lot of..."I'm so sad, poor pitiful me, nobody loves me"!! But someday, when I look back at my archives I want to be able to say, "WOW, God is amazing!!"